o·ver·whelm …

o·ver·whelm [oh-ver-hwelm, -welm]
verb (used with object)
1. to overcome completely in mind or feeling
3. to cover or bury beneath a mass of something, as floodwaters, debris, or an avalanche
Origin:
1300-50; Middle English

I had never felt this sensation of being overwhelmed in the past but twice within the past month. Moment 1: when I realized that I my life wasn’t going to plan, when I realized that life wasn’t about my plan at all. Moment 2: When I look at my bank account as a New York renter and understand how dependent on money I am while claiming independence. 

Independence is overrated and I find that I am most overwhelmed because I utterly desire to be dependent.

 

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I suppose I’m in over my head

I am going to be challenged. I know it and I’m scared at the reality of my soon-to-be-future reality. Graduate school, work, small group, loans, rent, God. Juggling these things is such a daunting task, but I’ve been reminded of something so important this past Sunday through the testimonies of my fellow church mates. It’s […]

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C.S. Lewis & Me

But it wd. be v. dangerous to have no worries – or rather no occasions of worry. I have been feeling that v. much lately: that cheerful insecurity is what Our Lord asks of us. Thus one comes, late & surprised, the the simplest & earliest Christian lessons!

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Life after Death

You can only be humbled after having to clean after the excrement of your 95 year old grandfather. After 할머니’s passing, my grandfather was living at my uncle’s and finally made the move to stay with my mom. Apparently prior to her passing, they used to frequently talk about about “what if’s” and in the […]

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“next year”

I love my 7th period class for multiple reasons, but mostly because I feel I can be the most human and natural. Though at times this is bad because I get lost in what I want to do versus what I should be doing as a teacher. In any case my 7th period class has […]

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