o·ver·whelm [oh-ver-hwelm, -welm]
verb (used with object)
1. to overcome completely in mind or feeling
3. to cover or bury beneath a mass of something, as floodwaters, debris, or an avalanche
1300-50; Middle English
I had never felt this sensation of being overwhelmed in the past but twice within the past month. Moment 1: when I realized that I my life wasn’t going to plan, when I realized that life wasn’t about my plan at all. Moment 2: When I look at my bank account as a New York renter and understand how dependent on money I am while claiming independence.
Independence is overrated and I find that I am most overwhelmed because I utterly desire to be dependent.